I will sip through the many adventures and challenges of life. Because I’m Ms. Sunflower Girl 🌻 and I crave for something that motivates and inspires me to improvement.
swayed by curiosity
A rush of adrenaline,
no turning back …
to a place of uncertainty
Happy go lucky
Relish… value you…
to sway positive spirits
where trust, care and respect
Listen to that still, small voice
let it hurt you
let it shook you
let it woke you up
you have many choices
never settle for what pains you.
Cast your last look
to the desert that bewitched you,
that stole your innocence
Don’t be a persona ingrata,
It empowered you
It satisfied you.
brush the sands away
fom your feet
you have a long way to go.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. -Proverbs 16:9
Making a decision is tough especially when you are torn between what you actually feels and what you need to do. For how can you determine what’s best for you if you will not take the risk. For how can you measure who really cares for you sincerely if you only appreciate what is superficial?
TRUST, RESPECT, AND CARE. These are the elements that make a happy commitment. These are the core values that make a strong bonding between two people. Love maybe a many splendor thing, but it is always an informed choice and an honest commitment that makes it special and binding.
Intimacy and sexual tension is good but it is temporary. It will waver once the lust is satisfied and the curiosity is sated.
Loving by choice is a free will. It never settles for the call of flesh. It compromises and promises. It is not uncertain.
God bless me. Aja!
to express my heart
while I think of you every day.
How I wish to touch
Your soft and curly hair
And trace your lopsided smile.
How I desire to kiss that dimple
And feel the roughness of your stubble.
Your brilliant black eyes
That bespoke longing
While they connect intangibly with my soul.
I miss your voice, your laughter
Our casual conversation
And the occasional banters.
Your hands misbehave
The twinkle in your eyes shifts
But it was the daring of your mind
And the sexy, confident personality
That draws me in.
It was the straightforward man
With so much more I have to know
So much more I have to discover
And so much more I want to spend my ordinary days with.
For whatever it is that connects us
Strong and binding
And sometimes daunting
I relish the adventure
Understanding God’s love fills you with the stability and confidence to face any rejection or loss, and to know, no matter how much it hurts, your identity and value can never be shaken. You are secure in God! Without the need to use another’s love, to salvage your self-worth, you can finally start to enjoy and appreciate all of the people and experiences that surround you every day. You can enjoy your life and your relationships the way God that intended.
Learning to live and grow in the love of God can be a process, as you throw off the old nature and ways of thinking, and put on God’s love and right way of living. The world around us is constantly trying to challenge you, and to pull you back. But, every single day, Jesus continues to express His love as an alternative. All that is left is for you to make a choice.
Are you ready to make a life-changing decision to follow true love and to be loved unconditionally? God is the source of our value and our hope. Nothing you face in this life will shake loose the love of God.
With God on our side like this, how can we lose? If God didn’t hesitate to put everything on the line for us, embracing our condition and exposing himself to the worst by sending his own Son, is there anything else he wouldn’t gladly and freely do for us? . . . Do you think anyone is going to be able to drive a wedge between us and Christ’s love for us? There is no way! Not trouble, not hard times, not hatred, not hunger, not homelessness, not bullying threats, not backstabbing, not even the worst sins listed in Scripture. . . . None of this fazes us because Jesus loves us. I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. (Romans 8:31-32, 35, 37-39, The Message)
Your Search for True Love Begins with This Simple Prayer
Your journey for true love and to be loved unconditionally begins with a simple prayer. Would you read and believe this prayer with me?
“God, right now I’m experiencing deep hurt and rejection. I realize that I have spent much of my life trying to find love and value in the wrong places. I don’t want to go on living like this. Forgive me for trying to find my own way. Forgive me for neglecting You. I thank you that even before I was aware of it, You were demonstrating Your love for me in Jesus’ death. I thank You that His death offers me a way to know You and to experience Your love. God, fill my heart with a sense of your love. Help me to realize that you are the source of my worth and value. I trust you with my life and my broken heart. Heal it. Help me to turn to you, and worship you. Amen.”
“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one.”C. S. LEWIS
But what is the point of living a life without experiencing the joys and the pains of loving someone wholeheartedly. You knew you won’t settle for less. You knew your standards. You knew you are a cut above the rest. But when you fall in love, sometimes, reason fail you. You listen to judgment but you decidefor yourself. Sometimes you act like a mature and wise person. Other times, you tend to be childish and impulsive, irresponsible and selfish with your actions.
When true love comes to you unexpectedly, you see things differently. You suddenly become fearless and bold. Sometimes you become desperate and weak. But however you may see things, at the end of the day, you have to make a stand.
That life goes on no matter what. And that you have to make a life of your self. A productive and positive life that matters.
You will always love. Yes, genuinely. But first, you have to love yourself nore so that when you give love, it’s the love that nurtures and makes your other half better, not bitter. Because you evoke optimism and you charge him or her with positivity in you.
Happy love love love.
To my superman. I pray to be with you soon. Everyday is worth living productively knowing that at every stretch of the weeks, I will hopefully see you again.
Right now, I have no better place than to be in your arms, feeling your warmth and hearing your breathing and heartbeat. I long to fit my fingers with your huge hands because it perfectly fits.
Hasta la proxima vez nomad. Til next time. Where and when, only God knows.
Sunflower Girl 🌻
I am Miss Goody Two Shoes. Hmmm… I was, hahaha, and at 29, curiosity is nagging at me like a conscience. And so, I make it a point to write a few adventures in my bucket list to achieve before I reach the age of 30 on August 21,2017.
Yes, few more days and I’ll gracefully embrace that age.
Most of the checks in my bucket list were great but a few were real shocker. Before 30, I was able to work abroad and live independently. I may not be financially free but I am happy with the few bucks I earned and the worthy investments I made. I am low maintenance and the two splurges in my budget are books and good wrist watches. I have never regretted a moment buying books. I may not have the time to read all of them now but when my heart longs for a comfy staycation, I’ll lie in the hammock and grab a John Grisham, Paulo Coelho or Stephenie Meyer. I do collect from various authors of diffetent genre, and I love the variety.
I don’t know what started my obsession for wrist watches. The lack of it during my younger years or the value of time, I can’t really tell. I just adore my collection and I love hearing their tic tacs that reminded me that I am alive and kicking. Every time I wake up, I am enamored to seize the day. It’s the mundane tic tac that resembles my heartbeat and pumps up to plan and chase my goals.
I booked tickets for travel abroad with my beloved sister. It will be an adventure of a lifetime because we will journey on our own with our carefully planned itineraries and average budget.
I dated for the first time in my life. Goosebumps and giggles mixed altogether. Hahaha. I had an online boyfriend before that I was totally devoted because we were friends for almost a year and we were connected by a close relative but connecting with the opposite sex in a personal level can be both daunting and exciting. And mind you, an eye to eye contact can be appalling but when you are comfortable with a person, you get drawn to their stares rather than drown in them.
I took an ielts exam in a foreign country. I did fine with my band score and honesty I was disappointed at first because I did but pass the standards, but I have learned to accept it and have made a self pact to retake and improve myself. Next time, I will be ready. I will take it with calculated risk by preparing conscientiously and not relying too much on my skills and experience.
I traveled around Saudi Arabia with good friends. I thought going to the beach and exploring other places aside from our hospital, malls, and parks are the only perks of an expat in Abaya. I was wrong on that notion. Saudi Arabia is a beautiful country but in order for you to enjoy it’s wonders, you have to open your mind and hang out with good and trusted people. I am happily scrolling pictures from our short but memorable outings in Jubail, Bahrain bridge and Baher Villas. I wish I can spend more time with them and illicit carefree laughters. I still have a few more days to spare before I finally bid my goodbye to the Kingdom and I really hope to ride that ATV 4×4 monster before my due date comes.
I have so many firsts here that I will fondly remember all my life. Leaving will be painful because Labor and Delivery Department has been a family for me for the past 18 months. I am also thankful for my previous 18months in OB GYNE WARD. Imagine leaving good people behind, but life has to go on no matter how difficult the partings maybe. I cherished everyone who made my 3 years a worthwhile journey to independence and maturity. You have witnessed me grow up and become stronger. I may still be childish in some ways and you may still complain, but who cares, I am just thankful to all of you who embraced me as me, Rachel. You accepted my flaws, my misgivings and above all, you tolerated my noise and drama. I belong in Labor and Delivery and I felt loved.
I will leave after 30 days but don’t you worry. I WILL BE FINE AND I WILL MAKE ANOTHER DRAMA. I will be sad but I have a loving family, relatives and friends who are anxiously waiting for my arrival. I am not VIP but with them, I feel super duper VVIP and that feeling is monumental.
I am casting all my worries to the arabian nights. And I am embracing new winds of opportunities. Ahh, there is nothing more comforting than a good night chat with the Lord reassuring me through calm spirits that I will do brilliantly in my next adventure.
Excited. Hopeful. Tenacious.
Sunflower Girl 🌻